February 2012
15 posts
Ginger ale
Ginger ale always reminds me of the psych ward. They kept me so doped up the first few days I was only awake for a few hours. Usually if I ever made it to the snack dispensary within the 5-minute window we had, all the “good” shit (read: juice, in foil-covered cups like jello) was gone already. But there was always ginger ale.
Remembering Mania
Laying in bed staring at the ridges and shadows in the textured ceiling, I’m reminded of early dawn hours after sleepless, manic nights when I would lay here staring at the same ceiling. When I was wild-eyed and restless with the false vibrance of mania, I saw words and pictures in the rippled plaster. I was completely convinced that they formed some deeply significant message, and I was the...
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January 2012
4 posts
December 2011
27 posts
sporkfight asked: Dear faith, your eyes are gorgeous true story. Love, ed
“The whole “if I don’t do it, somebody else is gonna do it worse” is not a valid...”
– Maxime Büchi aka http://mxme.tumblr.com/
Agreed whole heartedly
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i’m getting really good at holding my own hair back while i puke. this is not a skill i ever wanted.
i slacked on taking my lithium for a few weeks. big mistake. almost broke up with my boyfriend (one of the conditions of him taking me back was me being medicated and serious about my treatment, when he found out i was slacking on my meds he was furious), and now i’m starting the...
“Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won’t...”
– Louise Erdrich
My body tells me no
I’ve been under more stress in the past month than I have in my entire life. Its starting to take an ugly toll on my body.
My appetite is gone, mostly because I haven’t been able to afford food. Today I haven’t eaten in 3 days.
I can barely sleep without knocking myself out with heavy duty drugs.
I can’t function at work or in social situations without anxiety meds...
November 2011
1 post
October 2011
28 posts
Increased my dosage of Lithium to 1200mg/day. Now my hands are shaking so bad I can’t write or draw, open a bottle of juice or take a picture on my phone. I really hope these shakes go away faster than they did last time.
