December 2011
27 posts
sporkfight asked: Dear faith, your eyes are gorgeous true story. Love, ed
“The whole “if I don’t do it, somebody else is gonna do it worse” is not a valid...”
– Maxime Büchi aka http://mxme.tumblr.com/
Agreed whole heartedly
(via visualamor)
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i’m getting really good at holding my own hair back while i puke. this is not a skill i ever wanted.
i slacked on taking my lithium for a few weeks. big mistake. almost broke up with my boyfriend (one of the conditions of him taking me back was me being medicated and serious about my treatment, when he found out i was slacking on my meds he was furious), and now i’m starting the...
“Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won’t...”
– Louise Erdrich
My body tells me no
I’ve been under more stress in the past month than I have in my entire life. Its starting to take an ugly toll on my body.
My appetite is gone, mostly because I haven’t been able to afford food. Today I haven’t eaten in 3 days.
I can barely sleep without knocking myself out with heavy duty drugs.
I can’t function at work or in social situations without anxiety meds...
November 2011
1 post
October 2011
28 posts
Increased my dosage of Lithium to 1200mg/day. Now my hands are shaking so bad I can’t write or draw, open a bottle of juice or take a picture on my phone. I really hope these shakes go away faster than they did last time.
“she had nothing but time on her hands;
silver rings, turquoise stones and...”
– Saul Williams, “Fearless”
aredneckbyanyothername: Have you tried getting Fan Free Clinic? Or is that a stupid question?
Not a stupid question.
I’ve looked into it, and from what I can tell (correct me if I’m wrong) the Fan Free Clinic doesn’t have in-house psychiatric care. So I would have to get an appointment there, go, get an appointment somewhere else, go, go through the whole intake process all...
catacombes:
“Here I am trying to live, or rather, I am trying to teach the death within me how to live. ”
— Jean Cocteau
"Crazy"
One of my new coworkers saw my pill case when I was taking my Lithium and said “Oh, so you’re CRAZY!”
I hate the word “crazy.” I really do. I hate being called crazy. The most I’ll say about myself is jokingly talking about how the meds I take keep me from going bonkers. Never crazy. That word in and of itself just bothers me, a lot. I’ve been called a...
Frustration
I am frustrated with The System.
I need to up my dosage of Lithium (even higher) because I’m still experiencing manic and depressive spells. It frustrates me immensely to have to wait and wait and wait until I can get another appointment with my doctor at the homeless shelter. And THEN I’m going to have to wait at least a week or two for the new dosage to get into my system and start...
“Everything is more beautiful because we’re doomed. You will never be lovelier...”
– Homer, The Iliad (via dddeath-and-decay)
*not actually from the iliad. but it’s a good quote anyway. so i’m reblogging.
i need you like a bullet needs a beating heart.
you give me purpose.
